Currently Reading What My Mother Doesn't Know By Sonya Sones see related

AMANDA CALLED MEEEEE!! that made my day.. no that made my week. Im sooooooooo fucking happy that shes doing good. I felt like such a bitch leaving without saying bye or thanks for the fucking awesome bear with a chair she made me! [its soo pretty]!

Ok......... but now *SCREEEEEEAAMMMM* i feel so traped.. my mind went blank. I dont want to go to school i havnt been to a full day in four weeks. Im stuck and i have nobody to talk to. nobody that actually cares - like deep down inside cares. I have nothing to do. im terrified for my future... im scared of tomarow.. god theres so many goddamn long years i have to go till i can die naturally. '

Guess what.. i heard someone talking about nails and treatment and weird stuff like steering wheels. i fucking scare myself. no one was there. i was home alone...  

Oh god, and then that day when i woke up at 2 and was cussing out that spider..   that made me feel better though. I was pretending that the spider was my ex and i told him everything.... EVERYTHING!

hehe tony is singing like a girly. that cheered me up.......... for a breif moment. Im on so many god damn meds, i should be frolicking in the magical purple cotton candy clouds right now.. but im here and i dont want to be. i dont want to be at my moms. dont want to be at my dads. i dont even want to go to vegas. im so exhausted.. physically and mentally. i give up.. but i just cant stay but i cant leave either............

im........................................................................... i dont know.. about to be bitched at by my mother for whatever it is allens blaming on me for today.